Thank goodness for the outlet of this blog today. I’ve been stewing over something for several weeks and really needed to stop, take a breath, and feel some emotions. I’ve put it off long enough, and tomorrow will be too late. In the morning, I am traveling four hours to a special event involving one […]
Part of recovery is apologizing, or making amends. I have always assumed this but, actually, for the first time ever, I just Googled Alcoholics Anonymous’ 12 Steps and found that Making Amends is Step Nine. It’s about saying sorry to those I have hurt by things I’ve said or done. (Or so I thought, until […]
My life as an alcoholic has been the ultimate game of hide and seek, mostly with myself. And, my hiding has prevented me from finding nearly everything I’ve been seeking in life, mostly true happiness. Several hours after I passed out from my final drinking binge, I sat up in bed wide awake in the […]
Starbucks. Wow. I wasn’t really a fan to begin with, aside from an annual white chocolate mocha and an occasional iced passion tea when I’m too lazy to brew it at home. But, come on! Adding alcohol to the menu? Apparently, this is a bit of an old story and I’m late to the party […]
Do you remember your last drink? I remember mine. Well, maybe not. But, I remember the one that started my last binge. I drank with purpose. I drank with gusto. Off. The. Deep. End. I thought I was all sorts of fabulous, going out in a blaze of glory, drinking to my heart’s content and […]
This is where I’m supposed to stand up and introduce myself and say, “I’m an alcoholic.” Except for one thing. I just can’t bring myself to use my real name. Not yet anyway. I am an alcoholic. I promise. But, I’m also a wife, a mom, a daughter, a sister, an auntie. And, I own […]