Yesterday after school, my 11-year-old son had an accident with his bicycle in our driveway. A bad one. Requiring a trip to the ER for stitches. The nurse I spoke with on the phone at our pediatrician’s office actually encouraged us to dial 911 for an ambulance because my son was exhibiting signs of shock. […]
When Sobriety Is Not Enough
Yesterday, I reached two months of sobriety since my relapse. I made a mental note of the date, but there was no conscious celebration, unless you count the pint of Ben & Jerry’s I ate while watching House of Cards with my husband after the kiddos went to bed. At the time, I didn’t even think about […]
Fake Name, Real Person
Sunday night, a woman on Facebook questioned how anyone can benefit from what I share because I am using a fake name. I was just about to turn in for the night. But this bothered me. More than I care to admit. So, I guess I just admitted it. And I sat up another two […]
Motivation vs. Inspiration
Motivation. Inspiration. Different words. Same meaning. Right? Wrong. They can be used interchangeably – check any thesaurus and you will find inspiration is a recommended substitution for motivation and vice versa – and are meant to convey that someone is somehow stimulated or has an incentive to do something. But, consult a dictionary and it […]
The Power of Living One Day at a Time
A couple of weeks ago, I was scrolling through my Facebook feed on my iPad as I do each morning with my cup of coffee before I truly jump into my day and … WHAM. This was the post by Conscious Magazine: Wait. What? Limitations?! Living one day at a time is how I create […]
That Green Beer (And Other Drinks I’ll Never Try)
Drinking a green beer on St. Paddy’s Day has always been on my bucket list. I can’t believe I’ve never had one. It’s kind of strange that I haven’t. I’m almost 44 years old. I’m 75% Irish (or something like that). I love beer. I’m truly baffled. But, I’m sober now, so it’s just not […]
A New View Of An Old Drunk
I’m stewing heartbroken in a hotel room this morning. My son is off playing knee hockey with his teammates. And my husband has taken our daughter to swim in the hotel pool. I am sitting in bed with a wonderful large hot coffee my husband brought me back from breakfast because the sore throat I have […]
All For One and One For All, Right?
As alcoholics, we’re all in this recovery thing together, right? When we enter into battle each day and staying sober is the only way to emerge victorious in the war against booze, we’re all on the same team, right? Maybe not. Seems to depend upon the weapons you use. Perhaps I am crazy, but I […]
My Relapse: The Time Failure Masqueraded as Victory
On Christmas Eve, I threw away seven months of sobriety. Actually, I was one day shy of seven months. The most difficult almost seven months of my life. In that moment, I felt the need to let go of a lot. I was keenly aware that I had a whole new box of tools for […]